When I couldn’t find god anymore my imagination with movie stars guided me.
I always knew there was a high purpose for film in my life.
Its personal…a little self indulgent, too, I guess…self indulgent that I would imagine personal encounters like these with stars who don’t know me from Adam. I almost feel like I am imposing or something but…no one will read this anyway.
For Nicole Kidman
I see her sitting on top of a rock…a small bonfire…she is stoking it…the sun is rising behind her. Her dog walks out of her tent. She wraps a blanket around me, like I am a sister or something and hands me a mug of tea. I am newly blind in this imaginary scene…I can’t see…she is comforting me.
“Darling. No matter where you are…heaven or hell…the light…can you feel it? The light will always find you and… it doesn’t waste time but its not a shock even though it moves at a speed…(she laughs)…even without seeing it…remember… Its here (she places her left hand on my sternum). Take a deep breath and know that this truth. Because you can’t see it…you will get to know it more. I promise you.
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